A new beginning...

Hello,

My name is Annie. Currently, I make a living as a personal trainer, barista, and seamstress. You can check out what I sew here. If I am not doing any of the aforementioned things, I can be found in the kitchen attempting some new recipe that I may only ever use once.

This is my blog to record my hopes and dreams, as well as my thoughts and feelings.

I expect that like anything, with practice this will get better too.



I sure hope so.

The power of will.

It only takes so long before I become tired of my own excuses and decide to do something about it. It isn't easy, and sometimes I break, but I find the harder I work the luckier I become. Abraham Lincoln said that once.

Sometimes, I get to this point of such extreme low self esteem it becomes paralyzing.

I've met these people that continue the way I have been. They are past my point. I don't want to be those people. They are so sad and so convicted in their self pity and excuses that they alienate those who love them. I find myself doing that too, but I saw a quote that made me rethink what I am doing now.

It said, "All it takes is 20 seconds of insane courage to change your life completely."

I thought about that and determined for myself that it does not matter if I think I can, or if I think I can't. I will. My convictions will be that I will, no matter what the circumstance. I believe self esteem is like any other human attribute - like a muscle. We must practice using it and train it every day in order for it to grow.

Tomorrow my wrist may not say anything, or it may say something different. It doesn't matter. As long as I have positive and strengthening reminders as to why I do what I do I can keep going.

Today, I will.

I'm pickin' up!

I can't begin to tell you how discouraging it is when I pick a large project, excitedly start it, and then part way through get overwhelmed. I feel like I am way in over my head and at that point don't know if I can even finish it. My self esteem starts to diminish along with my drive... It just sucks. So today, when I finished sewing up the petals for about half of my quilt I was so excited!

It's a real pick-me-up now to look over and see this pile.

Suddenly, I feel like I can go on...
Which is great because I did not cut enough petals to make all the blocks I need. I couldn't believe it, but when I did the math I realized this quilt will take 450 petals. 450!

...I didn't know what I was getting into.