I feel almost exactly the same as I did last Tuesday.
Well, I heard once that we are doomed to repeat lessons until we learn them. I am repeating emotions before the same event in my life, every time. An indicator that there is something to be learned from this? I think so.
I thought about what it could mean though, and it brought me down a rabbit hole that I continually side-step without thinking. Its like I know it's there, but it is something I ignored or put off for so long I either forgot it completely or let it become absorbed into the background of my life.
However, the problem I have been side-stepping has been my life. I go about it the wrong way. I need to change my method. I do what everyone else does but I approach it in a different way so that I don't recognize it, and it's a classic so I don't know how I could have missed it.
It is the classic, "I need to do something in my life to reach success. I'm going to quit smoking, starting eating right, start exercising, get a new sleep schedule, get a new hobby, and quit my job. Today." People do this all the time and never last more than a week. Why is that? They take on too much at once! A person cannot handle that much change and expect success to stick. It feels good for about a day and then reality kicks in and it all sucks.
Well, "Hello, Annie!" That's what I do too! Me! I do that!
This May I said, "Yes Tyler, I will marry you. Then I will:
- start planning a wedding
- move in with you
- adjust to my new life
- start quilting for the first time
- start a Pilates certification course
- work part-time
- start blogging
- learn about photography
- learn old school cooking techniques
- learn to can
- start writing workout programs
- start my own workout program/training my little brother
- learn ballet and the french instructions
- open an Etsy shop
- decide to make a quilt to raffle at my wedding
- make my niece a quilt
- and contemplate a job change."
I need to prioritize.
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